i've finally found something that i'm genuinely interested in spending a lot of time on. i haven't really been passionate about a hobby in awhile so it feels really good to have this. i'm currently on spring break wishing it would never end. it's crazy how much you can get done when you don't have a pile of homework everyday. that being said i still need to study during this break. unfortunate.
i just got back from la. it was exhausting and our flight got cancelled for unknown reasons so we had to rent a car and just drive home ourselves. while in la we visited the beach and little tokyo. i bought a giant domo. it was so foggy near the beach i was sad but summer hasn't even really arrived. maybe i'll take another trip to the coast soon. this is officially the last day of my break and i'm dreading going back to class.
i made it my new years resolution to walk into every room like i belong there. i still doubt myself in every space i'm in. i tell myself it takes a certain type of person to achieve this or that, and that it isn't natural to me so why bother. i find this more detrimental than the belief that i'm just naturally not a charismatic person. why bother? well i think that's what separates successful people from those who stay comfortable at their natural state. i know there are people more qualified than me, and there always will be. it really doesn't matter. i've recently come to find out that you can create any reality you want. i know this to be true because it is slowly happening. it isn't going to happen overnight, but i will have everything i want, and that is natural to me.